Capacity To Love

Life is a delicate dance on the edge of a precipice. We meticulously plan our steps, meticulously calculate the odds, yet we inevitably flirt with risk. We build our lives like fortresses, brick by careful brick, yet a single storm can reveal unforeseen vulnerabilities. This isn’t a condemnation of our efforts, but a testament to the inherent uncertainty of existence. We strive for control in a world that constantly reminds us we have very little.

Our pursuit of knowledge is a similar tightrope walk. We amass degrees, devour books, and accumulate experiences, yet the sum of our understanding remains a tiny island in an infinite ocean of the unknown. We become experts in our chosen fields, yet the universe continues to expand, revealing new mysteries that dwarf our current comprehension. The more we learn, the more we realize how much we don’t know. This isn’t a cause for despair, but an invitation to lifelong curiosity and a humbling reminder of our place in the grand scheme of things.

And then there’s love, the most expansive and paradoxical of human experiences. We pour our hearts into relationships, believing we’ve reached the limits of our capacity to care. Yet, life has a way of surprising us. Our hearts, like the universe, possess an almost infinite capacity to expand. We discover new depths of affection for children, find unexpected connections with strangers, and even learn to cultivate a deeper love for ourselves. This isn’t to diminish the love we’ve already given, but to celebrate the boundless potential of the human heart. It’s a testament to our ability to connect, to empathize, to cherish, and to grow.

It’s easy to fall into the trap of self-criticism, to dissect our past mistakes and replay them endlessly in our minds. The path to self-destruction is paved with these “what ifs” and “should haves.” The spiral downwards can be swift and devastating, threatening to engulf us in a darkness that feels insurmountable. Depression lurks at the bottom of that spiral, waiting to claim us. But there is a lifeline, a beacon in the darkness: the enduring capacity to love. Love for others, yes, but perhaps even more importantly, love for ourselves. And intertwined with that self-love is the unwavering belief in grace, whether you call it divine, universal, or simply the inherent goodness of humanity. It’s the belief that even in our imperfections, we are worthy of love and forgiveness. It’s the acceptance that mistakes are not the sum total of who we are, but rather opportunities for growth and learning. It’s the strength to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and continue the dance on the edge of the precipice, knowing that even if we stumble, we are not beyond redemption, not beyond love, and not beyond hope.

 

About the author

Webb Hubbell is the former Associate Attorney General of The United States. His novels, When Men Betray, Ginger Snaps, A Game of Inches, The Eighteenth Green, and The East End are published by Beaufort Books and are available online or at your local bookstore. When Men Betray won one of the IndieFab awards for best novel in 2014. Ginger Snaps and The Eighteenth Green won the IPPY Awards Gold Medal for best suspense/thriller. His latest, “Light of Day” will be on the bookstands soon.

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