First Saturday in Lent

I am writing this on my laptop sitting in my backyard drinking a beer and listening to Sam Cooke on my Ipod after a very difficult week at work.

Yesterday I found out that I was passed over for a promotion at work in favor of someone else. Needless to say I came home yesterday in a mood similar to what Winston Churchill used to describe as “the black dog.” I felt lost, annoyed, disrespected, jealous, and most of all, I felt very alone.

Then an amazing thing happened. I met my wife for dinner, and she thought no less of me because I wasn’t the new manager of financial systems. And I picked up my sons and all they seemed to care about was which book we would read together tonight, they had no interest in the decisions that our accounting director is making. Their love for me was, and remains, unconditional. And in that sense, they are like God. In this way the unconditional love of a wife, or a son, or a parent is the true manifestation of heaven on earth.

My wife thinks that I am being sent a message. That God has something else in mind for me and it doesn’t involve Sarbanes-Oxley compliance. I’m starting to believe she may be right. Dad said yesterday “Too often we focus too much on the sacrifice part. By gritting our teeth and becoming as strong as we can be, we don‚t let something be done for us that is more wonderful still”

Sitting outside on a Friday afternoon listening to the birds and enjoying respite from the week, I find myself mediating on what God’s call to me might be and I think I am starting to hear what Sam Cooke is singing when he says,

“There have been times that I thought I couldn’t last for long But now I think I’m able to carry on It’s been a long time, but I know A change is gonna come, oh yes it will”

– Walter

About the author

Webb Hubbell is the former Associate Attorney General of The United States. His novels, When Men Betray, Ginger Snaps, A Game of Inches, The Eighteenth Green, and The East End are published by Beaufort Books and are available online or at your local bookstore. When Men Betray won one of the IndieFab awards for best novel in 2014. Ginger Snaps and The Eighteenth Green won the IPPY Awards Gold Medal for best suspense/thriller. His latest, “Light of Day” will be on the bookstands soon.

1 Comment +

  1. Dear Web, thanks so much for this note of inspiration. As a fellow
    parishoner and former Joanne Hutton EFMer. I am glad to be included in your
    Lenten messages. I have been in the center of illness for almost a year. I
    am beginning to look and feel better yet my cancer continues to spread.
    Today I am going on my first overnight since last May with a group of
    remarkable women that I have known since the 7th grade. As a widow whose
    children are grown, they have provided a constant circle of unconditional
    love for me these many months. Their friendship has taught me to value the
    simple things in life – a beautiful gift since my former life allowed little
    room for quiet reflection and companionship. Why is that even though we have
    learned the lessons of love and family do we still keep trying to go back to
    what we used to know and competition? I will chew on Sam Cooke’s words in
    the car today, and hold on tight to a belief that things are about to
    change. Sending you God’s great love. Linda

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