The Six Year old philospher’s spring break delayed today’s offering, and while it was being written the following came in like “manna from heaven.”
“Hey—I thought I would share something with yall since you are our spiritual guidance right now—-I was thinking about it this morning as I got ready for work–not sure why. It was prompted by a party I went to (and hosted) on Saturday night. It was at a friend of mine’s house. The couple is my age with similar jobs/backgrounds—-but their house is amazing. Huge and beautiful with an amazing courtyard—two blocks from the park. I found myself envious all night. Envious of the house and assuming that their lives must be better because their house is better–nicer–bigger. What had I done wrong that I didn’t have all that they had?
And then for some reason that same night (perhaps in my sober clarity) I realized how unfair I was being to myself, and my husband and God. I was assuming that what I have (or have been given) isn’t good enough.
So, then I thought about Lent–and the meditations, and what yall might say. I decided that since my true tangible vices (starbucks and wine) were given up about 5 months ago—maybe I would try to give up something a little deeper this year. Envy. It is a sin, right? I was thinking that every year I manage to give up something tangible—-and reward myself with a lot of that something when Lent is over—but maybe this year, I won’t want the envy back after 40 days. Maybe instead I will have a much stronger appreciation for what I have.
We’ll see. It is hard—very—and takes a lot of thought each day. Makes me realize just how deeply it penetrates my daily life. So it is a good, spiritual challenge for me—-just wanted to share with yall.”