You wonder if I am becoming stir crazy or impatient. Suzy may disagree, but I think I am handling this healing pace okay. I am reminded of a quote I received from our mutual friend Ginger:
The burden of suffering seem to be
a tombstone hung around our
necks. Yet in reality it is simply
the weight necessary to hold the
diver down while he is searching
Now I am not suffering right now, but substitute “long, slow process of healing” for “suffering,” and the quote rings quite true. First, of course it is certainly better than the alternative. Second, it forces me to “search for the pearls” I hope to soon discover.
We all go through times feeling burdened by life. Our jobs, our economic situation, our health, and many more of life’s curve balls have us feeling terrible, stressed or afraid. Unlike Ginger and Richter we fail to dive for pearls, but feel like we are just treading water and slowly being drug beneath the surface until we drown.
Given this new opportunity, I spend part of each day diving for pearls. I think of the new opportunities that await, regardless of the physical limitations I may have. I relish in the love that I receive from Suzy, my family, and so many friends, new and old.
I also am learning that a lot of life’s burdens are self-imposed and need to be simply let loose.
Am I impatient or stir-crazy? From my perspective the answer is no. I am too busy swimming and diving in “magic waters.”
One of my favorite bits of Sufi wisdom is that we attract that which we put out. So if we choose fear, we will attract more fearful experiences. Stress, resignation, hopelessness…. attract the same. On the other hand, if we put out love, hope, abundance, that’s what comes back. Same message the video, book and movie The Secret was sharing…. That tricky universe!