Before, I get to today’s subject let me warn you about something. When we arrive in Portland next spring, and Suzy suggests hiking — beware. What’s a moderate trail to Suzy, who has a low center of gravity, strong tennis legs, no joint problems, and an extreme love for exploration is not necessarily “moderate” to this former football player with the knees and other joints to prove the toll the sport takes on one’s body. Nevertheless the Blue Ridge was gorgeous and worth a trip east. Remind me tell you about how I felt when I was gasping air after climbing an elevator shaft type of steps, and a young man passed me in semi jog and in flip-flops singing.
All that said, I was wondering if Sufi’s have an expression that has come up in the book I’m about to finish writing. In the book the accused murderer of the Senator leaves his lawyer a clue as to why he put a gun to the Senator’s head. The clue hidden in a bus locker was a DVD of the movie Jerry Maguire. Everyone suggests that the clue is — Cuba Gooding’s line “Show Me The Money.” I won’t spoil the plot, but the lawyer’s partner suggests an alternative meaning for the clue. She says that Jerry says he wants to become –, “the me, I always wanted to be.” She goes on to say, ““From all you tell me, (the client) had principles, strong ones. Maybe he’s leaving you a clue about how he felt ( right before he shot the Senator). Maybe he was thinking about him being the person — he wanted to be. There’s another line in the movie by Renee I Can’t Pronounce Her Last Name. She says, “I love him for the man he wants to be, and I love him for the man he almost is!”
I missed these lines when I watched the movie, frankly preferring the football scene, especially Cuba dancing in the end zone. But it is something to ask myself. I am close to being the person I always wanted to be? Am I the man I “almost” am? There were times I thought I was headed toward that goal, but more often than not, I seem to be running from, not toward that person I always wanted to be. I was never a big fan of the commercials that urged you to “be all you can be” by buying their product, But I ran across a thought recently that said it better. I read an interview of Michael Meade whose most recent book is Fate and Destiny: The Two Agreements of the Soul. He said, “The role of a fully realized human being is to arrive at the door of death having become oneself.”
Anyway dear friend its something to think about. Take Care. Webb