My God, my God why have you forsaken me?
And are so far from my cry
And from the words of my distress? Psalms 22:1
Days of doubt – If we are honest with ourselves we have such days. We doubt our value, our contribution, our self-worth, and for a few even God’s existence. On Maundy Thursday, we recall that even Jesus called out to God. We long to see our life as part of a larger whole contributing to some greater purpose, we long to find our unique path, the one that God marked for us before the foundations of the earth.
Lent doesn’t exempt us from those days, in fact it might actually accelerate their coming. For as we long to experience the presence of God and respond faithfully to that presence rather than living our days disconnected from spiritual reality, our awareness of our personal failings and shortcomings come to the forefront.
The Lenten season isn’t easy, but its rewards exceed our imagination. During this season as we strengthen our connections to God, we have days of doubt where we can’t see how we can bridge the gap. We struggle to find ways to strengthen our connection, but doubt if it is enough.
The good news is that although we may not think our efforts are sufficient, they are always good enough for God. God doesn’t deal in results, but in the effort. Days of doubt come and go, but God’s presence is always there.