I’m not sure.
I seem to be saying the above a lot more. When I was younger being “sure” was a given, and if one wasn’t, there was always plenty of time to make up from one’s mistakes. Now-a-days it seems that I am racing against a clock to make sure everything is in its perfect place. Even though truth be told, things are never in just the right place.
The uncertainty I’m feeling is a common experience, and it’s something many people grapple with, especially as we get older. When I was younger, there was a sense that time was on your side, and that I had the luxury of making mistakes. Now, that feeling has been replaced with a pressure to have everything in its “perfect place,” which often feels impossible. This feeling of being “not sure” can feel overwhelming, but it can also be an invitation to a deeper conversation with yourself, and with God.
Maybe it’s time for one of those good old fashioned sit downs with God. Where I ask what’s next and what should I be doing, and I hear not what I expected, but what I need to hear — the basics: Love God, Love Your neighbor, and God will take care of the details.
My desire for a “good old fashioned sit down with God” is a recognition that sometimes, the answers we seek aren’t found in a frantic race to control every detail of our lives. Instead, they’re found in a quiet moment of surrender. It’s in these moments that we can let go of the pressure to be perfect and instead, open ourselves up to a different kind of wisdom. The wisdom of “the basics;” Love God, Love your neighbor, and God will take care of the details.
This isn’t just about a change in perspective; it’s a shift in focus. It’s a move from trying to control outcomes to trusting in a larger plan. It’s about remembering that your value isn’t tied to having a perfect life or a perfect plan. It’s tied to your capacity to love and to be loved. The truth is, things will never be in their “perfect place,” but maybe that’s okay. Maybe the real goal isn’t perfection, but presence. Maybe the goal is to be fully present in each moment, trusting that God is already at work in the details,
This conversation with God doesn’t have to be a one-time event. It can be an ongoing practice. It can be a daily surrender of your worries and a daily recommitment to loving God and loving your neighbor. And as you do, you may find that the uncertainty doesn’t disappear, but your relationship to it changes. Instead of a source of anxiety, it becomes a reminder to trust, to have faith, and to remember what truly matters.
What does that “sit down with God” look like for you?
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