You ask the same question that Suzy asked on our morning walk — ” Do I sometimes feel like this is all too good to be true?” My transplant came in the nick of time. My hospital stay was remarkably short, way below the estimates. My recovery to date has been uneventful and seems to be progressing well. It is in our nature to ask, “When will the other shoe drop?” When will the sword of Damocles fall?
What is is about life that conditions us to always be cautious about good fortune? We find ourselves warning that the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming freight train. Perhaps it is because we have a very difficult time living in the moment. Instead we dwell on the experiences of the past, or worry about what the future will bring.
Little children don’t seem to have this problem. When something pleases them the laugh and smile with delight. Only as they grow older do memories of bad experiences, disappointment, and pain begin to overcome the joy of life.
As I prepare for this new journey I need to constantly remind myself to begin as a very young child. I need to shut out my internal voices of past experences and dread of what is around the corner. I also need to turn a deaf ear to external voices that try to draw me back to my old world. I constantly repeat a new mantra, ‘”I am alive.”
I do not need to far go into my faith to find an example of wonderful news that comes to each and every one of us without a chance that it will be withdrawn. Jesus said, “The sun shines on the just and the unjust.” God’s love for us is never withdrawn. His unconditional love for us regardless of merit may be “too good to be true.” Yet, it is true.
Right now I will refuse to say it is too good to be true. It is also true. I have been given a great gift as we all have. It is now up to me to be thankful for the gift, which I am. As importantly, I need to use the gift without fear that it will break or be lost in the future.