I have been frustrated recently by what I call medicine by default. I won’t go into the boring details, but I simply felt that certain decisions about my treatment were made simply by not making a decision than by a conscious thought process. My frustration didn’t make anything better as well, and I continued to obsess. Fortunately, the more I thought about “default medicine,” the more I had to admit that way too often I had engaged “default deciding” myself. As my mother would say, “I was getting a come up ance.”
How often do we make decisions by not deciding? More often than we care to admit, I expect. On small things, it happens all the time. We can’t decide between the red or blue shirt, so we buy neither. We can’t decide between drinks with friends or a movie by yourself, and you end up staying home. Many non-decisions are harmless. Many non-decisions can be disastrous. We continue in a destructive relationship because we don’t know the best way to get out of it. We continue to work in a toxic environment, because we are afraid of change. We all can look back and remember where our default decisions were major decisions in our life.
All this thinking about “default medicine” causes me to think about how much of my spirituality and relationship with God is by default? Have I approached this most important relationship simply by letting inertia control or is it a result of conscious process involving both my mind and heart. I know that God has not been an “absentee owner” in my life. Why should my relationship with God be structured by default? I have to remind myself that my spiritual life should be decided by a well thought out, love-based process. God and I both deserve the attention.
Your friend, Webb